[ Holding out his hands as if to calm a wild animal, he pleads with her with his eyes if not his words, continuing on in the same frank, flat tone. ]
I wanted my magic back. I wanted it more than I can express, it was ... it was as if a limb was missing, I craved it desperately. I was selfish and relentless. When Billy's spell didn't work, everything began to unravel. We went into the final battle where it was revealed the constructs were built from my power. I'm a god, Verity. My story is a very real thing, I create roles as much as I live them, warping reality at times, and my guilt manifested into fully-developed personas. [ His hands upturn. ] I hadn't wanted to lead the others on but back then I didn't understand why, I wasn't made to be anything other than a murder weapon. As soon as I did, my magic returned. I sent Teddy to Billy and ... it all got a little Disney, after that. We won. I left.
When I applied to the All-Mother I demanded that I should be paid for my services, that's where we struck a deal that for every mission I carried out, a crime in my past would be erased. Expunged from the annals of history so I wouldn't have to be defined by his story anymore. I didn't want to be the thing I was becoming, the monster who destroyed a child's life! The King Loki I met in Asgardia's dungeon, the one my mother has sold me out to.
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[ Holding out his hands as if to calm a wild animal, he pleads with her with his eyes if not his words, continuing on in the same frank, flat tone. ]
I wanted my magic back. I wanted it more than I can express, it was ... it was as if a limb was missing, I craved it desperately. I was selfish and relentless. When Billy's spell didn't work, everything began to unravel. We went into the final battle where it was revealed the constructs were built from my power. I'm a god, Verity. My story is a very real thing, I create roles as much as I live them, warping reality at times, and my guilt manifested into fully-developed personas. [ His hands upturn. ] I hadn't wanted to lead the others on but back then I didn't understand why, I wasn't made to be anything other than a murder weapon. As soon as I did, my magic returned. I sent Teddy to Billy and ... it all got a little Disney, after that. We won. I left.
When I applied to the All-Mother I demanded that I should be paid for my services, that's where we struck a deal that for every mission I carried out, a crime in my past would be erased. Expunged from the annals of history so I wouldn't have to be defined by his story anymore. I didn't want to be the thing I was becoming, the monster who destroyed a child's life! The King Loki I met in Asgardia's dungeon, the one my mother has sold me out to.
[ His expression weakens, brows cinching. ]
I do want to be better.